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Saturday, March 31, 2007

Amazing Sax and Much more Beautiful than that Holding hands

samuel is embarassed to say that she is really really really good. Its really really beautiful. if only i can play like tat. i mean ok the most of it is normal, but her solo was wow. listen to the growl and subtoning, its not easy to ctrl and also not easy to put into the right place. Really fantastic. You can just fall in love listening to this. I know I have haha.

This is really cute, and then really touching when they hold hands again. its one of those 'awwwwwww' moments

ahBoey blogged @ 3/31/2007 07:11:00 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

Ballet of the Skies

Was with Dawn when this inspiration hit. After having lunch with her, we were walking back to class, this was when we saw 2 birds perched on a branch, beautiful fowl(bird not chicken) they were, they were chirping melodiously and seem very happy. They did a little number between the leaves, flying in harmony as if it was a ballroom. haha 3d ball room more space. And again later while walking down the stairs, we saw another 2 birds doing the same. For both encounters, u see an idiot me juz standing there, blurred out, and looking nodding at each comment. But actually I'm really appreciating the moment, juz tat like most guys, we have a serious inability to display anything. Oh dear, i juz said that i'm inept. So i juz stood there like without a sound or anything. But really, I'm juz awed at the beauty of it. Since can't express otherwise, i'll do it the only way i noe how, in words. Anyways most of my ballad pieces about Song and Dance. This is because i tink tat when a couple are together, songs and dances would be the most beautiful ting to portray them together. Also, all these juz in my head only, i'm still single, haha. Still unattached, so ladies leave a number. haha kidding only lar, i not so buay yau bai or buaya(alligator) .Xp bleah!!

Bird Song

Oh, what a delight!
To have you by my side.
As we both take flight,
our dance of marvel begins.
Perched upon a branch of hope,
Our feet touch each another's.
Feathers flutter and bright lights sparkle.
The Tango of the skies above.

Just like the Gemini Stars above,
You know I'll never be far from you.
With you, I soar like an eagle.
With you, I'll sing our song.
Chirping along with me,
You join me in the chorus.
Voices warble and leaves rustle.
The Song of You and Me.

Flying between the leaves,
Bashfully you try to hide from me.
I'll always search for you,
I'll always be beside you.
Even when the winds grow strong,
Even when the Sun is gone.
Feathers will flutter, voices will warble.
Our song, we'll sing forever.

Someday when spring is gone,
No song will I sing any longer.
Until spring returns and you're here with me,
a thousand Summers will I wait.
The rain will come again,
The Winds will blow ever so.
My song I'll sing with you,
and we'll tango in the skies above.

This photo of YCK outing to National Museum. juz tot it'll be nice to like add a slice of my life in.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/30/2007 09:29:00 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Cured, no longer EMo

Funny thing, was only upset for a day. Strange thing that when we lose sight of what is beautiful, what is meaningful, we grow so upset. even stranger is that, when we pray and ask of Him to show us back the marvels in our lives, he does it instantly. In everything so subtle, we would begin to see the beauty. Had this idea in school, but couldn't write it then. Lotsa restrictions. Anyways, since the idea is there and the motivation still fresh. I can still write it at home. Voilà, samuel's next masterpiece, his pièce de résistance. I am like a super buay yau bai lor, but i dun care. Meanwhile, hope u'd enjoy tis as much as i enjoyed writing it.

Btw my leg really hurts now, i did suicidal thing again. Went running yesterday long dist despite injuring my calf during swimming on Thurs. Got a severe cramp then and was in the middle of the pool, so hadda endure til the end of the lap to stretch, but cramp too long liao so injured. Then during running, hahahahaha, i ran til the pain is gone, until around 6k, then my feet hurt, ankle can't take the punishment no more. But still heck and ran til no more pain, then pain again, then no more pain again. Manage to fin the 15k i set myself. REalised me legs can't take as much punishment as last time but hey, I dun care. lalalala

The Songstress
In a Lovely Gown that flows from above,
With long tresses that whisper in the wind,
A Beautiful warble fills the atmosphere.
With each note that is carried,
with each chord that sings,
I'm drifting far into paradise.

The magic in the song,
The enchantment of the siren.
A thousand ships would sink just to hear her voice.
A gorgeous Diva she is,
like a Goddess to be worshiped from afar,
I dare not lift my eyes to her.

Her song of fantasy,
of fairy tales that's yet to be,
It makes my every soul rejoice.
I love her more with each tune.
Spellbound, mesmerised and lost,
Lulled into an eternal bliss I am.

Her gentle smile and winsome chatter,
Her vivacious personality and so much more.
All these pale to what her song is.
I peered into her eyes and marveled at the vision.
So delicate a beauty,
I'll protect her with all my might.

No matter what the cost,
No matter what the pain,
All I desire is for her to sing and smile.
I'll give everything to keep that precious beam of sunlight.
So much so that nothing else matters.
Her song, her smile. They'll always be precious to me.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/24/2007 12:22:00 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Speechless

Super Emo Day.Had a quiet lunch, how do you even brighten someone's day when you yourself is drained? Went swimming today, Been thinking lots. Some petty squables after, some history revived. Shocked, stunned, appalled, dismayed, astonished, astounded, dumfounded, dismayed. I swallowed a thesaurus, and yet utterly speechless again. Sometimes, our or ppl's words bring back memories of past trauma. Things we thought we have released, but pain sometimes remains. For the entire day, all i've gathered is this. Can't say I', satisfied with this, nor can i say anything resolved. In the end, still have to face everything. Wow it's been more than a month of cyclothymia, I think i muz c a shrink soon.

Speechless
Two people side by side,
two sides of a table they sat.
Two cups of half-drunk tea there,
No conversation exchanged.
No words flowed, nothing spoken.
A peculiar sight if you may,
But still silence fills the air.

The breath of zephyr blows through,
Like silk it caresses so.
Carrying with it the fragrance
of half-drunk tea.
Though the tea is now finish,
Still its aroma lingers,
Like lost conversation it stays.

Words not exchanged between two souls,
Yet a thousand emotions felt.
Like a river flowing fast,
Carrying with it memories past,
The silence sweeps through .
So much was spoken, so little said.
Now in the silence, more to tell.

Sitting still, they still speak not.
No senseless banter, No teasing done.
No more chewing the fat today.
No more enjoying each other's company.
The wind kisses them goodbye.
Friends and yet no words come by.
Distance grow and they leave without a sigh.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/22/2007 11:09:00 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Phantom Of the Opera

Watched Phantom Of the Opera (movie) on ch5 last Sun, wah really nice. Especially the song, All I Ask Of You. Wun watch the musical when it comes, cuz no one to watch it with. And no way, i really mean NO WAY I'll watch tis alone or with another guy. The song really will melt you wan. In fact, if the Girl for me sing tis to me and mean each and every word, i'll probably just collapse and crumble unto my knees sia. She'll totally wrap me around her fingers.

"Say you love me every waking moment,

Turn my head with talk of summertime

Say you need me with you, now and always

Promise me that all you say is true"

Any ways here's the full song.

RAOUL:
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
My words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you...
CHRISTINE:
Say you love me every waking moment,
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you, now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you...
RAOUL:
Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light.
You're safe. No one will find you
Your fears are far behind you
CHRISTINE:
All I want is freedom,
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me...
RAOUL:
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you...
CHRISTINE:
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
BOTH:
Share each day with me, each night, each morning
CHRISTINE:
Say you love me...
RAOUL:
You know I do...
BOTH:
Love me, that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you...

ahBoey blogged @ 3/20/2007 09:47:00 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption

I just finish watching 'The Shawshank Redemption' on chn 5 sat moviehouse. Gotta say that is one heck of a show. If anything i really recommend it manz. Got Morgan Freeman acting so u noe its good. It ain't some arty farty super chim show. Its abt prison life. Won't spoil the rest of the show for u all, but trust me go watch it and be awed. "Fear can hold you prisoner. Hope can set you free" from the show. Oh Really fantastic story telling and twist super unexpected wan. even more crooked than most of my stories.
It was adapted from a Stephen King short story ,'Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption'. Nope it ain't no horror or thriller, just some really heartwarming story. This guy really writes some wicked stuff, it's really really good.(wicked here used meaning as really good not mean-spirited) His stories are really amazing, some much better than his novels. SUmmore i only noe 2 good ones, "The Green Mile" starring Tom Hanks, and this show. Ok " Dreamcatcher" really bites, it stinks in my opinion so that one not counted.
To all film watchers, not juz buffs, cuz i also dun really watch shows wan. Shawshank Redemption, go Watch it. I gonna hunt for the DVD and buy it soon. NItez all you readers of tis blog, no matter how few that is

ahBoey blogged @ 3/18/2007 01:30:00 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

B day Special

Today is my birthday LALALA LALALA.
Amazing day it was. It all started in the morning. A phone call i received, a song i heard instantly. A voice to brighten my day, A Joy that never ceases. Looking up above, Clear skies for always. It means a lot.
Many things happen today sia. Met Dr Why on way to school and talked to him. He is actually quite a nice person and really weird to see Lecturer and student chat machum like frens like tat. Dun noe why everyone else in Psych dun like him. Really, if u actually talk to him, u'll realise that people are more than what they appear to be.
After which went for lecture on Cog psych, Yeps It's the last lecture already so fast rite. Next week test, then no more topics left.hahaha so fast fin. Manage to mak a nonsense answer during the lecture, lalalala. DUn care,not happy arh call police lor lalalallaa.
After which, i met Seung Hoon. Funny thing, he bo tai bo ji call me wonder where i am. And we both happen to be at the Forum. Talked for around 1 and half hr. Wah really kou chang qi bi sai sia. Then, met up with Dawn. Hey gal, thx for letting me send u. I noe i bery the annoying but hey dun care sia, lalalalala. U da best. Chatted all the way, then after which went home. Sleep then Feast EAt Cake and watch TV. XP No work done today woooo hoo. actually no, I did the posthoc test for proj, but dun count tat, i manage to shoot my day Yeah.
Thx everyone for making it special. The magic of it all is always in the subtle things that you do, that is wat makes it extra special. What ever is beautiful, make it even more so.

Anyways composed tis poem. Again dun fit context wan or mood for tat matter. Anyways tot of it on way to school. To all single ppl(including me) out there, that special one is there, just keep looking it'll happen when its least expected. In the meantime, just enjoy.

Single
A single leaf falls from the tree,
carried by the wind it dances gracefully.
Caressing the ground,
it makes no sound.
The falling leaf which no one knows,
No one cares

A single drop of rain from above,
swiftly it falls from a great height beyond.
Splashing hard,
It breaks apart.
No one felt it falling,
No one knows it did.

A single bird dies alone,
Rapidly its life ends as it knocks into a window.
So beautiful and delicate,
so fast its demise.
No one saw it happen,
No one wonders why.

A single tear rolled down your cheeks,
Silently it flowed without any cry.
The sadness you felt,
The agony of it all.
No one saw it happen,
No one cares at all.
But I do,
Every tear that falls,
Every cry in despondence,
I see them in your eyes,
I won't walk away.
I'll be here always,
A hanky in my hand,
A shoulder there for you.
Your tenderness within
fills me up inside,
My sole purpose is
to dry those eyes of yours.
When no one else cares,
You're all that matters to me.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/15/2007 10:49:00 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

What Does It Mean To Be A Christian??!!

This is another one of my' What Does It Mean To Be a Christian?' blogs. Actually, this qn differs from the one i keep asking myself, which is 'What does it mean to Love God in all i do?'.
Last sat, i participated in a evangelistic b ball comp. i went juz expecting to have fun. Actually i got what i wanted but from another source instead. the games were quite rough as if most streetball games with no proper ref. sry Ivan, u noe wat i mean not say i shoot u haha juz tat u 1 ref cant c all. i took quite a lot of blows, charges and hits. but what i really thank God for is tat i didn't lose my cool and retaliate. If it had been some time ago, i probably would have gone berserk as i was bery easily angered then. It truly is God's grace that someone like me, can now like have high tolerance, dun noe how it happened.
But the real miracle was not this. I have been quite low-spirited ever since like V dae. Some memo juz cum b to haunt me. then one memo lead to another and another. Somehow though i managed to stand up thru the pain, they juz come b every now and then like some freak. Also, during a sat b4 i didn't really had a good session at MINDs. i was asked to look after another kid then. previously though other volunteers had problems, the kid was usually a little pleasant when i took care of him. thus my PD asked me to take care of him then. He was ok and quite good mood, that is until his parents left. wah then he suddenly throw tantrum. Was having a bad cold then also. At first, i tried all methods to pacify him. wah then suddenly becuz of the flu, i realli no energy liaoz. he didn't participate in most of the activity. I prayed fervently that God would give me strength, not to lose my cool, and also most of all that no matter wat happens he would be happy again. Again, i tried pacifying him, with the help of another volunteer, we manage to get him to do arts and craft. Thankfully, help came soon. His usual volunteer came and she manage to turn his frown into a smile. I really thank God for answering my prayers.

Well,was saying that i found what i needed in the b ball game. it really amazes me how He works. The beauty of it is that it is so subtle it's hard to see. But then it juz comes and then suddenly ur life changes direction. I suddenly found myself really joyful (i'm serious, this is like so sudden that if it were not due to Him, that means i got some psych prob, maybe cyclothymia or Bipolar). What was the magic done? he showed me the Pastor's kid(going 3, really really cute) Aww, he is like so easily amused, so happy so filled with the joy and love promised. I spent the rest of the day playing with him. Amazing how God managed to put the joy back in me in just like, i dun noe, an instant? Instant;y, everything became beautiful again.

What does It mean to be A Christian? It means that at the end of the day, no matter how hard things get, He is up there in control of it through it all. It means that He would bless you though you don't see it, He would always hold your hand and comfort you.
Many times in our lives, we don't see the beauty in things. We lose hope. We use our own power and ways to try and get things done. Even faithful people who serve in various ministries, we fail to seek God in our thoughts and deeds, prefering to rely on our own strength. But we are human, our strength has a limit. We ain't no superman. We get stress and blame God for not being there when things fail. And when things go well, we say it's all due to our efforts. We don't give God the Glory. As a result, as time goes by, hearts harden. Eyes turn blind, ears deafen and even our touch becomes numb. We no longer feel God's presense in our lives. We lose heart, we wonder why issit that we serve at all. We wonder if he is there.
I tell you the truth, i too stumbled. But now i see, through it all He is always there for me. He always guides me by his hand. Even at times when i didn't seek him, he was there. He gave without me asking. In NS, he was there for me. How do I know this? i always wondered where my source of strength and joy comes from. how issit that i manage to enjoy doing things that i would otherwise hate. how issit that i feel so refresh at the end of each trial. Someone was there to help me.
If even at times when we dun seek, He is there, how much more so if we seek?
I never believe in chance, the timing of many things in my life is just too perfect. If by chance, stats put significance at .05 meaning 1 in 20 due to chance, but if it's always, it has to be the work of Someone out there looking out for me.
How do i noe it's Him and no one else? I sought God and wanted to make my life right with Him again after a long time. Immediately, i felt His presense in my soul. Through my very being, i juz knew it was Him all along. When i worship, He fills me. When i read His word, He teaches me. In everyday living, He shows me His word in action. i read the Bible, but many times i dun understand, then suddenly w/o any warning, He always show me what it means in simple things in everyday living. Truly, it is by grace. I live each day by his grace. The main thing i see is the rapid transformation he did in me. I didn't see this til people pointed it out to me. Thank You Lord for everything.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/13/2007 11:33:00 PM

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Remember

Actually, don't know why i suddenly want to write, cuz i tot would be some time b4 i actually do so. but then suddenly got the feel. esp since now so many deadlines and muz study for all the test. Well, met up with my senior canoeing captain yest. So much has changed this 4 years. Our thinking, our physique(yeah we all super sum por now).
Well still suffering from cold, got it by being stupid. went running after reaching home after helping out in Arts bazaar immediately. summore was after rain, so super cold and tired still go running.
Have been griping lots about El test. Well actually i tink i overdid it haha cuz i succeeded in annoying everyone around me, Yeah score.. Anyways, not tat i actually bother, cuz if i can do well for the previous wan, a retest wouldn't hurt 1 bit. If u r chai means u r chai(haha super bhb). Remember I am the 31zulu( those with me in NS, u noe exactly wat tis means), lalala. Have to carry on my legacy.
Anyway wanted to write this poem for a long time, juz deelee dalee til now. A few weeks back, was chewing fat with a fren on bus. Was joking about her forgetting me in 3 months(though i think it true=(. Anyway this is for her, if she still remembers.( no pun intended)

Remember

Remember, remember, the times of October,
The joys of the days so cavalier.
Children laughing, birds singing.
Youth knows no sorrow,
No burden they bear.
Those were such happy days,
Always remember the times of rejoicing.

Remember, remember, the days of November,
The struggles of life so heavy.
Holding on together,
We soar like great Albatrosses.
Those were the days we stood together,
Always remember the days of struggles.

Remember, remember, the days of December,
The sorrows of the days, so lonesome it was.
We love so many, yet lose so much.
The pain of love tearing the heart.
The days of tears, the days of yonder,
Always remember the years of pain.

Remember, remember these three months I will.
So much has happened, so much was said.
Times of happiness, times of jubilation.
The tears flowing like water draining from the sink.
A clockward spiral that never ceases.
Time would make memory a decadence.
Do you still remember me these three months,
or like the wind memories of me have long gone past?
Forget you not always I will.

ahBoey blogged @ 3/08/2007 08:23:00 PM

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Lalala

Its been quite some time since i last had an entry, think it'll be even longer before i write again. Much to study, tis sem muz push cap up so that next sem i can take funny mods again(hahaha). Am reading Much Ado About Nothing, Shakespeare, for proj. Have never been much of a fan for Shakespeare Romance. Though they are nice and quite romantic, but his notion is diff from mine. Take Much Ado About Nothing, if i was Hero, i most certainly would not have married Claudio, for he is a real jerk. What type of man go accusing his love of being impure on the day of their wedding, dishonouring her in front of the masses. He has no trust, no faith in her. He never did respect her or even to clear things before his actions. So temperamental, so emotional, kaoz. Even a MCP like me also comment him tat means he really CMI jia lat wan. HAHA Dun really like R&J either haha. The only few i can tahan is Merchant of Venice and As You Like It. Prefer Dicken's Romance, closer to my ideal romance hahaha. But dun ask me abt them i forgot liaoz haha. Well dun expect anything here for some time, at least til i complete my assignments

ahBoey blogged @ 3/04/2007 08:57:00 PM

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