This is another one of my' What Does It Mean To Be a Christian?' blogs. Actually, this qn differs from the one i keep asking myself, which is 'What does it mean to Love God in all i do?'. Last sat, i participated in a evangelistic b ball comp. i went juz expecting to have fun. Actually i got what i wanted but from another source instead. the games were quite rough as if most streetball games with no proper ref. sry Ivan, u noe wat i mean not say i shoot u haha juz tat u 1 ref cant c all. i took quite a lot of blows, charges and hits. but what i really thank God for is tat i didn't lose my cool and retaliate. If it had been some time ago, i probably would have gone berserk as i was bery easily angered then. It truly is God's grace that someone like me, can now like have high tolerance, dun noe how it happened. But the real miracle was not this. I have been quite low-spirited ever since like V dae. Some memo juz cum b to haunt me. then one memo lead to another and another. Somehow though i managed to stand up thru the pain, they juz come b every now and then like some freak. Also, during a sat b4 i didn't really had a good session at MINDs. i was asked to look after another kid then. previously though other volunteers had problems, the kid was usually a little pleasant when i took care of him. thus my PD asked me to take care of him then. He was ok and quite good mood, that is until his parents left. wah then he suddenly throw tantrum. Was having a bad cold then also. At first, i tried all methods to pacify him. wah then suddenly becuz of the flu, i realli no energy liaoz. he didn't participate in most of the activity. I prayed fervently that God would give me strength, not to lose my cool, and also most of all that no matter wat happens he would be happy again. Again, i tried pacifying him, with the help of another volunteer, we manage to get him to do arts and craft. Thankfully, help came soon. His usual volunteer came and she manage to turn his frown into a smile. I really thank God for answering my prayers.
Well,was saying that i found what i needed in the b ball game. it really amazes me how He works. The beauty of it is that it is so subtle it's hard to see. But then it juz comes and then suddenly ur life changes direction. I suddenly found myself really joyful (i'm serious, this is like so sudden that if it were not due to Him, that means i got some psych prob, maybe cyclothymia or Bipolar). What was the magic done? he showed me the Pastor's kid(going 3, really really cute) Aww, he is like so easily amused, so happy so filled with the joy and love promised. I spent the rest of the day playing with him. Amazing how God managed to put the joy back in me in just like, i dun noe, an instant? Instant;y, everything became beautiful again.
What does It mean to be A Christian? It means that at the end of the day, no matter how hard things get, He is up there in control of it through it all. It means that He would bless you though you don't see it, He would always hold your hand and comfort you. Many times in our lives, we don't see the beauty in things. We lose hope. We use our own power and ways to try and get things done. Even faithful people who serve in various ministries, we fail to seek God in our thoughts and deeds, prefering to rely on our own strength. But we are human, our strength has a limit. We ain't no superman. We get stress and blame God for not being there when things fail. And when things go well, we say it's all due to our efforts. We don't give God the Glory. As a result, as time goes by, hearts harden. Eyes turn blind, ears deafen and even our touch becomes numb. We no longer feel God's presense in our lives. We lose heart, we wonder why issit that we serve at all. We wonder if he is there. I tell you the truth, i too stumbled. But now i see, through it all He is always there for me. He always guides me by his hand. Even at times when i didn't seek him, he was there. He gave without me asking. In NS, he was there for me. How do I know this? i always wondered where my source of strength and joy comes from. how issit that i manage to enjoy doing things that i would otherwise hate. how issit that i feel so refresh at the end of each trial. Someone was there to help me. If even at times when we dun seek, He is there, how much more so if we seek? I never believe in chance, the timing of many things in my life is just too perfect. If by chance, stats put significance at .05 meaning 1 in 20 due to chance, but if it's always, it has to be the work of Someone out there looking out for me. How do i noe it's Him and no one else? I sought God and wanted to make my life right with Him again after a long time. Immediately, i felt His presense in my soul. Through my very being, i juz knew it was Him all along. When i worship, He fills me. When i read His word, He teaches me. In everyday living, He shows me His word in action. i read the Bible, but many times i dun understand, then suddenly w/o any warning, He always show me what it means in simple things in everyday living. Truly, it is by grace. I live each day by his grace. The main thing i see is the rapid transformation he did in me. I didn't see this til people pointed it out to me. Thank You Lord for everything.
Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Primary School(92-97)
Presbyterian High School (98-2001)
Pioneer Junior College (2002-2003)
2 yrs lost in time
Nus Fass(2006-
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