Worship to me is more than just singing of songs and clapping of hands. It is a lifestyle. Every single day how we live our lives, they are all important parts of worship and we should spend some time just saying "WOW". Worship is our response to God's grace upon our lives. It is our response not just in grattitude but also in awe. However, i believe that it is more than that. It is a 2-way dialogue with God. i don't know about the rest of you, but there are many times during worship when i just don't feel like it. Days when i feel so fatigued, when i don't even want to go to church(takes 45 min to get there, but still not a good excuse). Many times i lay in bed saying i'll skip church this week so in order to get some good rest. However, Thank God, i couldn't. Often 15 mins later, i'll chide myself and then tell myself how much more in times like this i'll need Him. Even at the entrance of church, prior to the service, i'll still be quite wasted. i'll say a little prayer to ask for a great worship despite being melacholic. And then although during the first few songs, i'll be forcing myself, after which the magic begins. He will show me his grace and then i'll be able to lift my hands, sing his praise and speack in tongues. It gets more and more intense and then after the entire service, voila no more woebegoned samuel.
Actually wanted to do this entry for some time. Attended cell for the first time yesterday,(actually they invited me half a year back when they were starting a book, now they have just finish) the topic shared upon was worship. Amazing cuz i'd been thinking about it for a week. Tis happens quite frequently so i noe its not be chance, also i can feel that it was all according to His purpose. Many times when i get lost, he will guide me in sermons, in casual talk with friends or even just the surroundings, more than just in the Book. i'd been quite the sian with worship service for some time, and have lost the joy of it. I wonder what has happened to the church. i'm pentecostal btw, so suppose to be quite up wan. But everytime i see things so lethargic, i feel so sad. There used to be lots of speaking in tongues, prophesying, weeping, shouts of joy and even dancing in the spirit. Sounds quite weird right, but i assure u if u've seen it u noe its from the Lord and not some unorthodox belief. However, as time goes by, people became more and more reserve. No longer do all these things occur, but also people stop singing, stop clapping. When i play for service, i look around and just see that there is no joy. I got quite upset, i even contemplated changing church.(but u all noe that that is not what i'd do. Those in NS with me, u all noe i can't just don't do anything about it.)
Last Sun i played for service. Prior to that we had a practice on Saturday. The practice was simply amazing. It took 2 and a half hours juz to go through the songs twice. In the band, i'm the one with the weakest technical abilities due to an inability to read chords or notes.( will spend some time learning this hols) Usually i play by ear. However what was amazing was tat, we got into an intense worship even at the first two songs,(which usually is quite weak due to needing warm up). The pianist(Dotz), drummer(Thomas), Guitarists(Jon, Champion and Brendan) and me(Samuel). We just played on and on. It was really amazing. I was like waaa-waa-waa on my Sax. Then had some time improvising during free worship. My fingers were flying all over the pads and my airjust kept coming though my lips were tired. Usually when my lips grow tired, i have a tendency to lao hong. It was just worshipping. Nothing else matters then, we just wanted to praise God and give Him the Glory he deserve. It was a very intense annointing. Tears flowed, some spoke in tongues, we just declared the wonders of his Grace. It was really one that brings joy and satisfaction to the soul. When u worship, u can feel it deep within, the 'mmmmm' feeling. It comes when u speak in tongues, when u raise your hands, when u shout his praise and when u just meditate and enjoy his presense.
From then, i realised that i myself have lost the joy in worship for so long. Mainly because i became so caught up with things that do not really matter. I became proud. I'd fail to see that what is important is how i worship not how others around me do. Once self-conscious, i see things that prevents me from doing what i desire to. And as such, i became focus on all the wrong things and couldn't worship from my heart.
Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Primary School(92-97)
Presbyterian High School (98-2001)
Pioneer Junior College (2002-2003)
2 yrs lost in time
Nus Fass(2006-
D.O.B 15031985
