Thursday, December 20, 2007
Amazing Grace How can It Be
I just got baptised today. Hallelujah!!
Actually, I've been attending church for the past 13+ years. So this is actually long overdue.
God has really been faithful and wonderful to me although I really don't deserve it. I'm not your ideal christian. In fact, I'm quite sad that most people would not recognise me as one until I say so. My frens say that it is because I don't act like most other Christians and not because I am a bad person or something like that.
Wellz, anyways just wanted to give my testimony of my baptism as what I said then.
God has really been amazing this week. For Minds Camp, and especially IGNITE Camp. Thanks Geraldine for inviting me. Haha I admit when you first invited me I was a bitz taken aback, but it's a real blessing to have a sister-in-Christ like you.
The testimony for the camp would not be written here as some people may take offense due to things being really spiritual. But I would tell it to all who want to hear.=)
Wellz, Back to my baptism testimony. I really have not been a good christian. Yes, I have been saved many years ago, but it is not reflected in my life at all. How can it be that my actions do not match what I believe. I have been horrible to people around me, especially to my family. I am quite ashame that I have persecuted my father in his work. He is a man after God's heart and has been serving actively for 12 years. I did not make the effort to understand him and also understand God's purpose, choosing to focus only on myself and comparing my self with others around me. My christian life has been really hypocritical, filled with lies and deception. I put people down in order to glorify myself. In times of triumph, I fail to see God. In times of failure, I also fail to see God. Only choosing to follow my own selfish fleshly desires. I abuse people around me.
Also, I have been lowering my standards. I have compromised on many of my stands in the army. I chose to believe in Lies and created my own lies. I stoppped worshipping God and cease to go to church.
However, God has always been faithful and true. He is always there even when I am not seeking him. Through the toughest days in army, through the many trials and tribulation, he has never left me. He is always there supporting me and calling me back to his heart. Through my army days, I lived a life of difference, I was joyful despite circumstances.
After army, that is when I noticed the difference in my life. God spoke to me to examine My life and my thoughts. There were many ups and downs after that. In NUS, I had many personal struggles. Although I was starting to return to God, I was always discouraged by things happening around and to me. I fail to see God in my life, I choose not to see his wonders and I create my own lies around me. The devil comes to steal, kill, and destroy. He has been really successful in hindering my relationship with God. Through many evil thoughts and wicked desires, I slowly hardened my heart too. That is another reason why I didn't get baptised last year nor last May. Too manythings have happened that made me shut my eyes to God. Too many hurts and pain.
Even for this baptism, satan did not spare me. he attacked me with all sorts of evil thoughts. I almost did not want to go through this baptism. But Thank God for his divine will. Thank God for him showing his might in Minds Camp and Ignite camp. Thank God for his wonderful will. It is His will that I go for Ignite camp and experience the wonders of his hands once again. Thank God for being so true and real. Thank God for touching my heart and filling me with his holy spirit. Thank God for showering me with his marvellous love though I don't deserve it. Thank God for fighting the devil for me. Thank God for helping me make the choice that I WILL SERVE THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, WHO WAS AND IS AND IS YET TO COME. AMEN!! HALLELUJAH!
Though I know that things are only going to get more difficult with my walk with God, I know that i can do it as He would never leave me nor forsake me. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!!
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12/20/2007 11:42:00 PM
